Rookie miscalculations, life and alienating movies

A rookie miscalculation wonderfully made me run out of fuel on the highway while trying to pass some cars. Quite scary to be honest. I suppose you are now wondering how this could happen. Well, quite simple actually. I do not have a fuel gauge on my bike, nor do I have a light to indicate when I am nearly out of fuel, so the only way to know for sure is the bike giving up. Luckily I ended up safely on the emergency lane where I could switch to my reserve fuel tank. After fiddling around a bit I got the bike back on the road and could continue my journey to work.

Amazing how fast such a moment goes by. Unbelievable how fast every day, every minute and every second passes by, so unstoppable. Furiously I try to keep up. Furiously I go through life flying from one moment to another. Happily taking in all I can. Positively trying to learn from everybody I meet. Trying to understand how life is totally different for everybody, from every perspective and every background. Some people carry a heavy load and nothing seems to be able to lighten their burden. It is unbelievable how every step taken is highly influenced by the attitude towards life. It always makes me wonder. People tend to say that you cannot remain optimistic and positive towards the world after it has brought you on your knees. I tend to say this is not true. We never know the story that someone we meet carries along. Sometimes you can tell from the heavy footsteps, from the gloomy smile and the closed-off eyes something is wrong. Sometimes it is hidden away, unobservable, placed within the heart and carefully tucked away below the choice for life and happiness. It makes me sad to hear people say that their days go by without a reason to smile. This simply cannot be true. The tiniest thing should be enough. Not always, just sometimes. Looking up to the sky, seeing the sun break through the clouds, morning mist hanging above the grass, a little breeze passing by, a smile, the reflection of a sunbeam in the water, a happy memory. I expect a lot from life. I expect a lot from the world and the people around me as I expect a lot from myself. This reminds me of a quote from ‘Nymphomaniac: Vol. I’ from Lars von Trier:

“Perhaps the only difference between me and other people is that I’ve always demanded more from the sunset; more spectacular colours when the sun hits the horizon. That’s perhaps my only sin.” 

Maybe I should add just a small warning here. This is not a movie for sensitive viewers, nor is it a movie I would recommend you to watch with your parents. More it is a mind-blowing movie full of explicit sex. Not the romantic, erotic kind, but rather the shocking, repulsive and alienating type. Power games. Lust. Uncontrollable urges. The animalistic drift hidden below the surface of some humans leaves you with disgust and wonder. Anyhow, you should forget about love and be prepared to be shocked if you ever plan to watch this film.

So, I suppose this is enough for now about strange movies and the quotes I remember from them. The only thing I really want to say is, don’t regret life. Maybe you can learn the most beautiful lessons from the worst times. Maybe, the moment you think you are getting the hang of it, it changes, but don’t worry. There are no rules to life. You have to make them up along the way.