A lack of sleep, but ready for the next story of life!
Well, I don’t like to admit it, but as many among my friends predicted, I kind of took up a bit too much work. It seems that working nearly 7 days a week and planning a trip around the world aren’t the best things to combine. So yes, all of you who are thinking, ‘told you so’, you are right and I am wrong, even though I hate to say that out loud. As it is impossible to make time stand still, the only thing that you can change to create more hours in one day is shortening the time you spend sleeping in bed. Apparently that also isn’t a very good plan as that results in me becoming very clumsy and ending up with a bit to much bruises from bumping into things. Not having enough time to properly relax is something I can live with as I enjoy nearly everything I do, but not having enough time to do the essentials kind of stresses me out. Sometimes I wonder why I do what I do. Working too hard, caring too much, loving too deeply and furiously fighting to be happy every day. Working in a hospital makes me realize how fragile life is. Every story sticks with me. I deeply feel the pain some people share with me. Because of this I would like to share with you the song I would like at my funeral. Not that I am planning to die, not at all, rather I am planning to live, discover, wander about, laugh, get lost, travel, make new friends, ride along unknown roads, love and simply sit down to watch the world pass me by. Anyhow, coming back to my initial thought, the song is ‘Northern Lights’ from ’Gaelic Storm’. Writing it here feels like a security that at least some people will know and remember if something would happen. Because let’s be honest, if there is one thing we can all be certain of it is the fact that, at a certain point in time, there will be an ending. Not now, not tomorrow nor the day after, but some day. There is no beginning without an ending. And an ending can be beautiful, look at the amazing colours when the sun goes down announcing the end of yet another day. All we can do meanwhile is surrender to what is, to life and look for happiness. Because whatever you do, it is worth it if it makes you happy at the end. Nobody should become a slave to the daily grind of life. Keep dreaming, keep looking up to the sun, the moon and the stars, but meanwhile vastly keep your feet on the ground. Sometimes things work out, sometimes they don’t, but maybe the greatest adventure is discovering what may happen. If you don’t take the risk and try, you will never fail. That’s life. Trying is failing, getting up, trying again and learning from each mistake along the way.
We are now facing an ending and a new beginning, the ending of our Belgium life of the past few years and the beginning of a journey of a life time. We said goodbye to our friends and family, in a happy way, celebrating together, eating together, listening music, talking and laughing. Deep inside it hurts to say goodbye for such a long time and yet I feel it is the good thing to do. Life is ahead of me, full of unfulfilled promises, undiscovered secrets and beautiful places, all I need to do is step outside my own boundaries and get lost in the stunning unknown.
